good afternoon God, i hope you enjoy this afternoon coffee. i want to say that i am honestly so sorry for my behavior. i took advantage of you, after all the years you have supported me and helped me, i know i created a mess and am here to correct and fix so you can trust me and feel good about Owning me. i accept all that i was looking for instant gratification and thinking with my penis and not my head and heart. i know there will be punishment and it is well deserved and i am ready to begin on the road to servitude with GOD. i am shamed of myself, for what i have done to everyone involved, and am here to repair the damage. i know going forward GOD speaks for me, i don't speak for myself, i follow as God leads, i do as GOD demands, i honor as GOD will trust. i love you God, and again i apologize for the hurt and shame.