This new chapter of my life as an owned TPE faggot started on January 2nd 2023. And what a year it’s been. The highs and lows of giving up my entire life and being controlled 24/7. Some of you have asked me to write a blog about it. I hope this helps explain how I got to this stage in my life and hopefully helps some of you in the process.
Right from day 1 BS37SKIN told me it was full TPE or nothing. His masculinity and power was taking over my mind from the moment we first talked. Agreeing to a meet within only weeks was the clincher. Making this real. The first 4 weeks were intense. Hard drains both financially and taking the power from me. Getting deep into my head. Showing me this is not just what he wants but also what I crave.
From day 1 he saw what I craved and knew what I was about and tuned my biggest fetish into my uniform. To be worn at all times outside of work. (Orange Hi-Vis and wellingtons). Showing he knew what made me tick as a sub and embracing that instead of changing me into something that I was not.
The first meet.
Having arranged our first meet on the first week of this new life the day arrived. I can honesty say I have never been as terrified in my life. Obviously in a truly honest and open TPE as this had become I told him this before he set off on the 3 hour journey to meet his faggot. He could not have been more reassuring to me. Telling me everything will be fine and my limits will be respected albeit pushed. Knowing he was on his way to meet his property made my heart race so much I swear it was going to bust out of my body. The fear of what was about to happen was still there but far less. There was no turning back now.
Upon greeting my Owner. (Not just my Master) I was on my knees at his boots in seconds. Showing him my real and true obedience to him. And then it happened. The chain he had got for me was put on. The proudest moment of my life to date. That stupid beaming grin on my face showing him this was all very real for me.
We went out for a shopping trip to Brighton. Obviously paid for fully by me. Levi jeans. Timberland boots. Work boots.The best part was going into the Apple Store and buying a tracker. TPE means just that. BS37SKIN should always know where I am. I asked him to do this. This was me giving up more freedom to show him my devotion is true.
I must admit. I had no idea how to be “me” on this first visit. Didn’t know if this was to be a one off meeting. But stayed in 100% faggot mode. Only sitting down in public once he instructed me to do so. Before he left he shaved my head fully and instructed me to stay that way for ever. I have shaved my head at 9pm every night since.
A’s February went on the control was getting deeper and deeper. Now tracked. I have to ask permission to leave the house. Knowing full well he will know where I am. And a second date in the diary. All my dreams had come true. It was only now, I realised how busy my owner is. Giving up so much of his free time for other people and arranging a second meeting so quickly meant even more to me than he would ever know. Covid gets me in February and without being over dramatic I truly thought it was game over. Multiple times in hospital. through it all. BS37SKIN was there for me. Looking after me, showing real care and getting me through my darkest days.
As we moved into March the rinsing was more often. But more so the power exchange was taking a real turn of events. Now having to ask permission to piss. A real true connection. Going further than I’d ever gone before. Deeper and deeper under his power. And yet all the time feeling more safe and secure now than I’d ever felt in my entire life. Taking over my online life and in real time too. BS37SKIN now has full access to my online profiles and takes no time in changing them to show I am his owned faggot. No longer just a secret between him and me. This is now my proudest moment. To have an owner who is happy and proud to take control of me publicly as well as in private.
April arrives and with it the second meet happens. This time over the Easter weekend. It is now not only his control takes full effect but I realise my trust in him is real and I start to love the man I call Sir. I know what I am to him and will never forget that. But now I know I love this man my devotion gets deeper and deeper. I finally get to purchase the one thing I’ve been craving to do, my owners Season ticket for the rugby. Having a real positive impact on his life. The daily voice mails he sends me keep me wanting to go further and further. It’s all about the connection for me. And he has that true connection with me. As we talk about things outside of all this and get to know each other better. Much more relaxed in his presence too. A true Owner I can be myself with. Brand new uniforms arrive with the logo my owner created for me. Now fully proud to be seen out wearing my owners brand 24/7
May. The power exchange continues. Now I am given Meal times and bed times. My love for him as my owner is now deeply cemented. I never want this power exchange to end. I have a purpose in life. His care for my wellbeing is a true credit to his personality and who he is.
June. A few short weeks until our next meet. Only this time I get to visit my owner on his turf. We discuss chastity. And agree this not something either of us need. He knows I’d never touch myself without permission and even then at cost. My devotion and dedication is stronger now than I ever believed possible. BS37SKIN now controls when I get up. When I eat, when I piss and go to bed. And also when I am allowed out of the house.
I had no idea just how much this life was meant for me. Always thought it was a horny idea but not a reality. BS37SKIN showed me this is just what I was missing. And truly helped me to get here.
Being owned and controlled fully. Is not as easy as it sounds. For either the owner or the owned. I will explain more of that in part 2 how being allowed to join this community has changed a lot for me.
Phranklin. Thank you. The biggest thing I have gained from all this apart from BS37SKIN is confidence. He has taught me so much about being me and not to be ashamed of it.
@BS; as you see; everyone love to read about this. Such a good idea to share some with us😉 you being very happy can be read on the chat everyday wich is gorgeous. I'm not sure I could or would want that level of control but this is very inspiring & again; I love to know you're happy & have good times. you explain all this very well. We can feel your true desire to be an even better human being guided by your Master (or owner or both)! What's the diff actually? Might be an inspiration for your third blog in the future. Thanks for writing & sharing cutie@BS; as you see; everyone love to read about this. Such a good idea to share some with us😉 you being very happy can be read on the chat everyday wich is gorgeous. I'm not sure I could or would want th...See more
This is beautiful to read from every aspect BS the dedication you have shown but at the same time what your owner has sacrificed too what he has given you and yet you truly deserve it I cannot begin to imagine those feelings the rollercoaster and the journey you both took to get here but 1 year on it’s just something so special and I can’t wait to read more ….. please don’t feel less is more or it’s a bore for some of us this really is goals from both sides of the coin proud of an amazing Fag here ☺️This is beautiful to read from every aspect BS the dedication you have shown but at the same time what your owner has sacrificed too what he has given you and yet you truly deserve it I cannot begin t...See more
Matty. Thank you. I am humbled by your choice of words. I’m just me. Far from amazing. I never thought we would get this far. It stared out totally different to what we have now. We are on an incredible journey together. But seeing you write such a lovey message of support (for both of us) is heartwarming.Matty. Thank you. I am humbled by your choice of words. I’m just me. Far from amazing. I never thought we would get this far. It stared out totally different to what we have now. We are on an incredib...See more
