I am not into findom! My findom story, sexperiences, approach & f...

A sharing of some more personal thoughts and feelings. Findom and me, how, why and after!A little about me & own experiences so far, A few of you asked. Time for me to reveal a bit and be a little more intimate than the eternal smiling, always positive and in a good mood concierge of the chat! As for ever ; forgive my English & enjoy trying to guess what I mean,

As for sex ; my findom practises & attitude started quiet young ! 7Yo, exactly, everyday around 10 am ! As a teenager I believed in the power of young lads & was looking for them to protect me from the older bad bullying boys. Young & already bad behaving doms I guess !

As an older teenager I discovered naked men (live) & switched my love for candies to love for dicks & sex!

I discovered real findom when I was about 20yo.

No more giving cookies but giving money to a man I lliked & wanted to please.   I have had some fun & gsome reat connections on those old Yahoo Groups where many doms had their Group, their pics & fans ? I remember 2 very well ; My favourite now on here as : All for GodMasterArchMasterArch, He had such a yahoo group with the hottest male soles pics ever,

I've been asking him to upload those on OF but I didn’t yet succeed !

  Came Twitter time with again several doms I got to know & made connections with, Should I mention I often ended serving those men.
one day while checking what had been posted I saw a dom’s account His tweets were simultaneously similar but different from the other doms and their tweets,

He had some interesting things posted comparing to the casual Twitter dom.
I must admit that his pics were just as interesting to look at,
He posted a link to some owned fags thing wich I found weird & not nicedisturbing,

I had heard that name too many times in the past & not exactly in an enjoyable way, Being on Twitter I also met some hot black American guy I started to chat with & soon started to serve,

We exchanged messages about everyday, Ask Slave ; my English may be bad, I do love to write,

I was serving this hot black man while looking and thinking about this other white dom. His tweets were simultaneously similar but different from the other dominants and their tweets !
It took about a year before I dared to send this dom a message!  It may not be very visible but I’ve always been rather shy, careful and the kind of guy who try not to disturb. My education, I guess, I'm not the type to want to impose myself neither! Especially not when I care about someone,

Having read that this owned fags link was leading to a Master/ sub site, we : (the black dom & myself) decided to register, It took a days to see how the site worked& what’s to do on it as how to do it. We tried things out & tested others. we decided to test that stable option.
I was there for a few days & as far as I remember; I paid that dom to leave that stable after a few days

That stable thing & giving up control was nothing for me at that time,.He wasn’t neither the right dom to do such things with,
He’s still a member on OF but doen’t log’in no more.
While being on OF, I got in touch with member : yellow bandit, He old me about his target record. Several targets running at the same time yet having many targets running simultanimy. For several doms, That game sounded fun! I met Master Pete on the chat & started on : targets games with many, many doms, Too many doms actually but it was fun & it still is a good fun time to remember.

For those who should want : you can read about those targets & rounds on Sir MasterPete profile & on mine. I basically would do a round 3 & 4 but it’s too expensive. About £500 per round; is a fun but expensive game!

I will rather keep that money to play with one single dom the way most subs do,
At that time I met & started making a connection with an exquisite, wonderful cruel hung man with massive balls, a beautiful voice & a humour to die for, A man who has been burning his kitchen a few times while trying to cook!
An international beloved sub member who was to become a lifetime friend. By now & unfortunately for him he’s known as My Cutie Pie!
B efore I continue; an important detail without too much importance ; For those who didn’t yet know: Slave as has Stan & “the cat”. This isn’t a French expression I tried to translate, it’s the way he calls his cat! A cat bitch & dog Stan who became famous in chat.

 A new findom chapter, I met (SHM (or traighthungmaster) (here on OF)!

Daily messages on Twitter wich was fun & nice, We didn't really talk about deep & important things but it was nice to log'in & see I had a message from the dom I had fun with & was serving. Those messages weren’t just to reply question but a few words he wrote spontaneously wich is lovely,

We have been playing quiet a lot, He's an expert in target titles & setting games, We had lots of fun until we, sort of decided the fun was not there no more.Many have been asking about; being called enslaved on a owned site & not being owned !

Why, how come, is the name appropriated,

I guess I’m just unownable, a demanding daydreamer and not to forget : Slave has not yet started building his stable !

Third target I am completing for Slave but he’s too busy being great to work on building a stable, , Being that good ain’t easy, I will p robably have to spend another winter outdoor at his door while he will set more & more targets on me !

you may wonder, what happened on Twitter & the 2 doms I liked !The black American dom still posts some scandalously hot naked pics but I don't serve him no more, as for the other dom, there’s about nothing to say except maybe : he still doesn’t tweet much!
Slave aka Cutie love Pie has ever called me a passionate sub into findom & serving! I guess I used to be that way .To be honest I’m not that passionated no more. As for many subs, I have been dreaming, wishing & hoping. I have been surprised, positively and negatively, I was disappointed and saddened but overall; I don’t regret nothing & won’t waste time on complaining,

I know many personal things about many of you & a very few know very personal things about me.

All I can is I will never share anything I am being told unless you should ask me to tell.

As for myself; things are not always as they seem.

For those who should wonder; yes you can message me everywhere you want whatever the place,

As you have seen; same name, same profile pic,
I had dreams and desires, I had ideals and a certain idea of things.

I'm no longer sure that this is still the case.

I have always preferred to be honest and say what I think and feel. In my opinion, the best reason to build things, to evolve and in any case : to remain faithful to ourselves and our principles.

I really enjoy meeting you daily in the chat so for those who don't have Twitter, my Skype or me email adress ; don't leave without saying goodbye & telling me how I can t reach you.

I lost several friends because of not having any way to get to them, That, it's so sad & so stupid,

At this point I don't really know where I stand anymore. I joined a site for doms to end loving subs.

I have shared & had more fun & honest, sincere times with subs as I ever had with a dom.

 I do like to tease & scratch a dom from time to time though, I don’t believe in superior & inferior living beings, Everyone is superior or inferior than another being I do understand the idea behind the scene & game but I believe in equality. It’s not about how many we can or want to give & it’s definitly not about making money, To me it’s almost not even about money, It’s about a connection & relation with someone who makes your days nicer, naturally , A dom making your days nicer ? That will naturally lead to wanting to please this dom & make his life better, nicer & greater in whatever possible way . Some subs likes to be mistreated, some doms will want to exploit, hurt or exploit  someone’s feelings or finances, As long as both feel better with each other

I no longer have any idea what I'm looking for and what I really truly want.

What I noticed above all is that I have lost my spontaneous motivation which was enormous.

Or better said, I no longer really have motivation or expectations for findom.

Whether your ego is small, medium, large or exaggeratedly very large, we are all unique and O; horrible truth ; no one is irreplaceable. I advise you all to complete your profile carefully.

 Saying what and who you would like and looking for i’s is a great start to getting it/ .

@BS, Gucci Nike, frenchbottomslut, Jeffie, servus  & other owned subs; I love to see & read how happy you are  with & thanks your to Master. Sorry for other owned subs I might have forgotten. See you on the chat doms  & sub friends